Anit-Hero

I'm Lauren Meyer. And here's my life in a nuttshell.

Personally, I am a Anti-Hero. My slacker attitude toward everything is a daily thing. I don't worry about anything that is truly important for me. I'm lazy when it comes to school with work, not stressing if I have it done yet. I live a simple life. I'm not daring. I live life and go with the flow. Occasionally doing well at things. But, no matter how bad I screw up, I end up doing well in the end, without doing a thing.

Everyone knows me as the girl that goes to concerts, which is fine with me. Concerts are my favorite thing to spend money on! The atmosphere of them excite me! Nothing beats seeing your favorite band play, and maybe even getting the chance to meet them.

My family and friends mean the world to me. I have a family that supports most of the things that I do. My friends keep me moving. I'm a people's person. I dread being alone. Hanging out with my friends is something that I do everyday. My brother and sister are two of the greatest people in the world. They always have some sort of joke to say, it leaves you laughing for hours. I love every single person in my life.

Alex Pardee is by far my favorite artist. His art is so much different than anything I've ever seen. And his books keep you at the edge of your seat.

My Quest

Every hero has a quest, mine is the quest for identity. In my life time I have gone through many stages; from tomboy, to goth, to prep, to emo, and finally to just being myself. Before realizing that its better to just be me, I played a role. I didn't act like the person that I truly was. I acted how people wanted me to act. I put on a show to be accepted. After years and years of being told what to wear, how to act, and what to say; I stopped listening to that stuff. I realized that the only person that I need to please is myself. Doing what others wanted wasn't cutting it. I'm Lauren, and I need to just be Lauren. To full fill my goal of staying me, I ignore all the negative comments that are thrown my way.

Being victorious will help not only me but others. I wouldn't be fake and tell a lie to make me look better, just so I can fit in. I will gain people's trust. I could be that one person that people look up to, just because I don't fit in.

Not only do I struggle with trying to show my true colors, I try to help change the world. People are judged by the outside, and even the inside more and more each day. Society frowns upon homosexuals, which is wrong. Segregation is still in tacked, even if it is against the law. People are still races towards other races. The world is still very much separated. I want to help change that. I want to help the world become a love filled world!

The Mentors.

Every time I say something about All Time Low people roll their eyes and stop listening to me. What people don't know is that All Time Low is more than just my favorite band, their my heroes. I look up to them for inspiration, guidence, and a way to live. Alex Gaskarth, Jack Barakat, Rian Dawson, and Zack Merrick have taught me the impotance of life. Just to live. Not to feel ashamed of the mistakes I've made. Sure, people laugh when I tell them this, but they don't see what I see in those four boys. They've taught me more than anyone I personally know. I have met them, and have great memories with them! I will always look up to these boys. They are my mentors.

Top Left: Jack Barakat and I. Top Right: Zack Merrick and I.
Bottom Left: Rian Dawson and I. Bottom Right: Alex Gaskarth and I.

Threshold Guardian

Kelsey Nicole Schmitt is my threshold guardian. She's opened me to new things, some good, some bad. We aren't the best influence on one another, why be good all the time? Kelsey has taught me more than I even realize. Shes taught me to be myself, don't go un-noticed, and have fun. She showed me that life sucks, but the people around you make it worth living. Kelsey is my best friend and has been for two years. Shes my threshold guardian till the end of time!

Kelsey is leading me to Africa!

Shadow

My confidence level is my own shadow. I'm usually a out going person who is up to try new things, but my confident level often gets the best of me. I talk about things I'm going to do or say, but when it comes down to it I bail. I never think I can ever do anything. For such an out going person my confidence level is low. I try to be as confident as Superman, but I fail time and time again.

Trickster

The trickster in my life is my little brother Jacob. He is the comedian in the family. He always has something funny to say, wether its apporiate or not. Jacob makes me laugh more than anyone. Once you pair him up with my dad, you have a laughing fest.

Jacob is the Will Ferrel in my life. He's always craking a joke even if he doesn't mean to. Its very rare that Jacob is serious. Hes a fun, loving guy that keeps you laughing for days.

My Wonderless Hero

Alexander William Gaskarth is my inspiration. Hes taught me so much about life, even though I've only talked to him once in person. Hearing about him and watching videos about him have made him so special to me. Alex has taught me not to care about what others think around me, just to like myself for who I am.

Not only is Alex a good role model, but he is also an amazing lyrists. His songs express his feelings fully, but they don't give away too much about his personal life.

Alex has inspired me to write songs, not to hold in my feelings in from the world. To express them, but without saying something I don't want too.

Alex has made a positive affect on me, more than anyone will ever know. He's more than just some guy in a band. He's a man that I look up too. Someone that always makes me laugh, but still plays it cool. Many others can say the same thing about Alex, but that doesn't matter. I know that I'm not the only person that looks up to him, he's pretty well known.

Nevertheless, Alex Gaskarth is my inspiration.

"Its been said again and again; life is a process, we are fleeting moments that come and go, and I’m grateful to have my time, my aspirations and my mistakes, my flaws and my abilities, think of me what you will, but before you do, don’t." -Alex Gaskarth

Band of Companions

My band of companions help me with anything that I need. They have been there for me no matter what. Theses friends are; Kelsey Schmitt, Kaitlin Cruise, Hannah Bewley, Brianna Sullivan, Callie Holt, Rachel Franco, and Susie Welch. They have made me laugh, cry, and smile. We often beat each other up, but its all out of love.

Kelsey Schmitt is my bestfriend. We've have had many ups and downs over the years. Quite often we tend to get on each others nerves. We always make fools of ourselves, but that's who we are. Without her, I would be no where I am now. Kelsey has made me into the person I am today. Kelsey, I'd swim the ocean for you.

Kaitlin Cruise and I go way back. We are always laughing and having a fun time. Life wouldn't be the same without her. I'd probably wouldn't be a well behaved person I am today.

Brianna Sullivan. She makes me laugh more than anyone. Some of the things she does are just plain dumb, nevertheless they're funny. She's the one I can depend on to make me laugh.

Hannah Belwey is another bestfriend of mine. She knows everything about me, even if it means hitting me until I tell her. We've gone through more than I can even think of. Hannah and I share the same interest in music, which is hard to find these days.
Callie Holt is a great friend of mine. She is hilarious in every way. She has plenty of dumb moments, but thats why I love her.

Rachel Franco is the dancer of the group. She's very trust worthy. She has pledge to not eat meat (except fish), which I think is amazing! She has helped me stay a vegetarian. Its easier knowing that there is someone else who is in the same boat as me when we go out to eat.

Susie Welch is my inspiration! We act like each other sometimes. I look up to her because she doesn't care what people think. All she cares about is herself.

Life without them, would be tragic.

That One Event

Concerts are my thing. I go to about ten a year. The first actual concert I went to was in eighth grade. It was Febuary 21, 2008. I remember it very well. It seemed just like any other concert, but it was so much more than just a concert. It opened my eyes to the music world. That Thursday night I realized what I wanted to do with my life. I wanted to tour the world with a band.

(Picture taken on Febuary 21, 2008 by me. Gabe Saporta of Cobra Starship.)

The Cab hit the stage first. Then, We The Kings rocked it out. Next, Metro Station shaked it. Finally, Cobra Starship jumped on the stage and sang their heart out. Every band had so much fun on stage. Not having to worry about anything, except throwing a great show. Many bands, just like Cobra Starship, have the best job in the world. Who wouldn't want to have fun all day and do whatever they wanted?

(Picture taken on April 17, 2009 by me. Alex Gaskarth of All Time Low.)
From that day on, I've aspired to become a music producer. Working with bands. Helping them write lyrics, music, and many other things. Just having fun! But still being successful. That one concert has given me high hopes for the future, that I'm eager for.

Time To Grow Up

Learning is a part of life, we learn something new everyday. The one thing I need to learn is to grow up. I'm 15, but I still act like I'm 5. The older you are, the more responsibilities you have. Lately, I haven't paid attention to theses new responsiblilities. I don't want them, I want to stay young, and not worry about it.

In the about three years, I'll be headed to colloge. By that time, I need to grow up and accept my responsibilites. If I never grow up, I'll end up living at home and getting on my parents nerves just like Will Ferrell and John C. Reilly in step brothers.

Monters Under My Bed

When I say monsters under my bed, I don't mean that I have the Boogy Man living under my bed. I mean I have fears that face everyday. I have three fears that will stick with me for the rest of my life: spiders, failure and death, those are my personal monters.

Spiders scare me. There is no other bug on this planet that has the same affect on me that a spider does. The way they run with those eight hairy legs send chills down my spine. Their fangs and many eyes scare me beyond belief. I rather face a shark than a spider.

Failure is my weakness. I'm so scared to fail that I don't even try half the time, which lowers my confidence level. I've seen people fall hard from something that they didn't succed and I had to never wan to see that happen to me.

Death. That is the only that stops me in my tracks. I am a christian, but I doubt a lot. Everytime I think about death my heart beats at a rapid pace, I breathe heavily, I start to cry. When that thought crosses my mind, I find something else to distract me from it. Spiders and failure don't compare to death on the scare factor.